It sounded simple enough, hiring someone to create my website. However what started out as a simple need, quickly turned into an international affair! I didn't just hire anyone ~ I hired a web designer who is based in Bali, Indonesia. And then I thought... why not tack on a Nia Dance Retreat as well?
Nothing felt rational about making this decision.
I had never in my life been in the position to easily pay for a 7 Day Retreat AND the creation of my website in Australia - let alone overseas. It felt so over-indulgent and was completely new territory for me. I had been working on my money mindset for 12 months, and it had worked. I had created the money to invest in my myself and my business in a way that I really wanted.
The prospect of travelling to Bali made me nervous. I wasn't sure what to expect, or even if I'd like it! But I also couldn't ignore the nudge from my heart to take the leap... it was like it knew something that I didn't.
This trip truly marked the beginning of a new chapter of being seen and heard ~ and most of all being nurtured.
7 Day Nia Retreat
The soft lesson I chose to ignore...
I arrived at a beautiful luxury resort in Ubud, Bali. I was so tired from all the activity back home in the lead up to this trip, that I was ready to surrender and focus on nurturing myself. Although it was a little hard at first because meeting new groups of people also makes me nervous.
Naya Resort where we stayed.
Eventually, I began to feel at home. In a relaxed state, I was walking back to my room in the dark when suddenly I slipped and fell over... Eeek! I went head over heels and landed awkwardly on my left leg.
I thanked god that no one saw me, I was so embarrassed that I could feel my cheeks turning red, even in the dark and coolness of the night.
My leg hurt, but I didn't want to tell anyone and cause a fuss. I hated feeling in the spotlight... I'd much rather just blend in. I told no one about it, and even though it hurt I still continued to dance on it for the rest of the retreat.
My Website Creation Week
The lesson became louder and I learned...
This time I was walking down a small and windy path that cuts through the infamous Ubud Monkey Forest. Now, just to paint the scene, this path (like many in Bali) is not flat and an easy walk... you really do need to mind your step as the concrete slabs overlap each other in all sorts of acrobatic ways.
Image from: www.journeystocome.com
I was trying to be very careful... but it happened again! I slipped on some moss and Bali brought me to my knees once more. This time it was worse than the last. I could feel the huge graze on my right leg this time.
As luck would have it, it wasn't dark this time though, so I couldn't recompose myself under the radar. Thankfully someone stopped to help me, and before I knew it they were pouring water over my wound to wash off the dirt. Eeek... is this safe?! was all I could think in my head.
There was nothing else to do other than be ok with it, so I limped back to my hotel. By the time I got back, I think I was in a state of shock and was ready to take a trip to a doctors clinic.
I approached the man at reception and he came around to assess the situation, looking at the blood welling up through grazed skin. He looked up at me, smiled and said 'It's ok. I can help you - no need to go to doctor'.
My Road... that I'll never forget.
Was he sure?! I must admit my reptilian brain strongly wanted me to go to the closest sterile environment immediately... however there was something very comforting about the mannerisms of this Balinese man. He genuinely seemed to think he could help me... so I decided to get out of my head and trust him.
He went into the back room, and returned with a dish of hot water and roll of toilet paper. He washed my leg with such care and gentleness. It sill hurt and I was shaking, my tears were tumbling down onto his hands, and he assured me quietly 'It's ok. Tomorrow it will be better'
This time I truly surrendered to being cared for, feeling this human compassion and connection that came from an unexpected source.
Me & Melanie my website designer
I feel that as Business Women, or women in general, we always feel we have to have it together. That we can't show our vulnerability and that when we need help, we can become even more of a 'control freak' (for lack of better words), to resolve the situation. But the reality is, that this type of reaction is usually because we aren't feeling safe.
Feeling safe is a core fundamental to creating a life that you love. Feeling safe allows you to feel nurtured, it allows you to make better decisions, and absolutely will allow you to manifest you dreams more successfully.
So thank you Mother Bali for the lessons you have taught me. Life truly has never been the same since - in a good way!
Hi, I'm Tina your Sensory Alchemist.
I love to deep dive into the Neural Network of your mind to understand your story, because it's absolutely changeable and you are the keeper of your reality.
And as for your senses, these are how you experience and enjoy life. Your senses ignite your emotions, which in turn electrify your mind... and this is where the alchemy comes in.
You'll often find me enjoying country life, but I do have a strong connection with Vietnam and I enjoy spending time there too.
If you know you mindset is holding you back, and your regular techniques aren't changing the situation, I can support you to make the shift around Money blocks, Self-Worth & Confidence - so that you can thrive, rather than just survive.
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